2012 年 ~我的情人节~

堂姐的满月酒 - 自助餐

今天早上早早就起床 为的就是去jinjang吃板面
然后去了 kepong JUSCO 买婴儿礼蓝给堂姐的女儿
意外的是 在kepong JUSCO 看见 Dun Dun and Dao Jeong Sui
买完后我们就去 银阿姨的家 坐坐
难过的是 今天的天气实在是太热了 就快要发烧了
回到家 以最快的速度 跳进浴室淋浴去了
7点左右 我们出发去堂姐家了
本来以为这次的自助餐是他自己煮 原来到最后还是请别人来煮
堂姐的女儿比堂哥的女儿白多了 惊喜的今天原来makiyo已经生了 而且也是个女的
今年是龙年 可是好像没有那么容易生个龙子
今天看见威威的照片 我打算把他的照片放在我的facebook profile 哈哈哈哈
期待我的照片吧 哈哈哈 今天就到这里吧 晚安咯 ~~

买Bear Bear 的一天

今天七早八早就放学了 真无聊 放学回家后 突然想起答应我的龙哥哥帮他去anti那边买bear bear...
回到家大概2点了 把东西整理好 我就出门去了 petaling street 真的改变很多了 第一次一个人去走街 感觉还蛮不错的呢 anti 的店在kota raya 的三楼 好不容易 爬了上去 看到的是uncle 因为anti出去打包了 我就开始我的任务 就是选bear bear 哥哥告诉我说 他不要太多毛的bear 那我就以少毛的bear为目标 好不容易的 我找到一个巧克力黄色的大熊 它的特征呢 就是鼻子很大 wahaha...选好后 我就付钱 然后丢下bear bear 跑掉了 哈哈哈哈 走街去了 我的第一站就是去第一档板面去回味以前中学的时候因为补习的关系经常去报到 那边的味道并没有改变 很可惜 改变那个是我 吃完后 赶上我的第二站 就是大众书局 到了大众书局 我走啊走 好像没有目标的人一样 走上走下 不懂要去哪里 也不知道要买什么 到最后 选了个耳机 家里要用的双面胶 还有放学生卡的袋子 和那可爱的水瓶 这几样东西加加起来都有五十多块呢。。 真不可思议 逛完大众书局 我就回到bear bear 基地 把它带回家了

一路上 走去走回的 很累也 回到家 还没忘记还有HSS Tutorial要做呢 我真是勤劳到....不懂怎样讲才好 哈哈哈哈 到家后 逃不掉的就是 爸妈一定会问那个是谁的 我也只好老老实实的说出 爸爸以为我驾车去买 当我说我走路去的时候 他问我为什么不叫他去载我 就不用拿到那么辛苦了咯。。 哇！ 真是开心啊~~ 无限的幸福就在我眼前。。。哈哈 爸爸 我爱你~~ 今天我的uncle特别早回来 原来他是要去夜市买东西 我当然不会放过他咯 之后我就跟去了 因为我一直想买多一个书包 然后把那个脱毛的包包捐出去 如愿以偿的我买到了一个看起来不错的包包 价格RM25 还可以吧...反正也是读书用的 买那么贵干吗？ 回到家的第一件事 就是赶那该死的Annual and AGM Report... 其实那是去年的工作 我还以为那么久了就没人追究 真想不到 SAD那么厉害 haiz... 没办法之下 赶紧三五两下做出来 不要小看我的效率哦 我做起事来可是很认真的哦 只是懒惰起来也是数一数二的 哈哈 无可否认 无奈~~
今天就到这里咯 开开心心的一天又过了哦... 很遗憾的是 没有照片哪。。。改天吧~~ 不要吵了..打你的啊..HMMMM..

肚子痛又爱睡的一天

8点的课~~好累.....早早起床 去到学校的食堂吃早餐 然后就上课去了 很遗憾的 没有课材 只能用听的 听到眼皮真重 为了爱惜我的眼睛 就把眼睛关了 => 休息~~



下课后 4个小时多么的空闲 去电脑室看戏 然后1点到爸爸有钱填饱空空的肚子 吃了我最爱的辣死你妈 就上课去了。。
其实7个星期的学期 有那么2天无聊的4个小时 如果白白浪费掉 好像也不是太好 但是我该在这4个小时做些什么呢？ 读书？ Time？ Fortune? 还是什么？我的确应该好好想想在下星期之前决定 既然已经下定决心要好好读书 就不能再浪费时间了 不然我真的会后悔 而且还是后悔莫及的那种

回家后不久 倒在床上 睡了~~~

睡醒后 我的肚子咕噜咕噜的在痛啊~~~



受不了了 吃药吧~~ 希望明天不要那么痛就好咯。。
我要睡觉了咯。。。晚安哟~~

~~这就是漂漂亮亮的我~~

年纪轻轻的我。。这张照片也应该是我的珍藏版 因为19岁的我看起来像小妹妹一样可爱。。哈哈。。真是爱臭美的我 这张照片是在我堂哥结婚那天晚上拍的 猜猜我在哪里拍这张照片？ 那就是每个人在宴会场上都会去的地方 应该也不用我说了吧。。 Anyway... today mood is consider okay + happy...

Year of 2011/2012

there are lots of cases happen during 2011...study, family, relationship, career,frienship,argument and others...
i almost forgot i still have a blog in this blogspot until i break the relationship with u...full of courage and confidentduring the year of 2011...
2011, i remain work in pusat bahasa titian jaya as a part timer, but i end my part time life around october 2011, all of this is because of u... i felt the difficulties while working in this company, do u know why?
1st - your attitude cause lots of ppl talk badly behind u but u just ignore what other ppl think, u don ever realise what should u do to change the situation
2nd - ur career start to become unstable n unsecure since february 2011, but time change nothing on you...but i begin to talkless but u remain ur situation
3rd - we keep argue on the same person, don't u noe how hurt am i, u hv ady hurt me for more than 2 years... since i to be with u, i wait and wait u to care my feeling and secure my feeling, but... the conclusion told me that i seems like a stupid girl waiting for nothing... it's enough for me... i felt sad deeply..i start not to give any excuse for myself to wait for any changes... because i noe no matter how i do, i wont get what i want at the end... there are no reason for me to wait again...
4th - my life getting worst instead of improvement, my requirement is toimprove my life depend on such relationship, but it seems to improve nothing in this 2 years... i think u may be getting worst compare to the years before u to be with me...
i read back the blog i wrote last time, that include much of our problem since we're together, until now we're seperate... try to ask myself, is the problem remain? my answer is YES. i shouldn't help u much, it cause u become dependent, no confident, no self dicipline, low time management..
no matter how well u treat me, the entire well is just remain for grace period but not future, i'm very emphasize in our future, but the whole action you did was dissappointed for me (drunk,gamble,lack of energy to work,fully utilise the time for entertainment than working) try to imagine, is this ur life? if this is ur life, im so sorry to said that, i'm not the suitable person to enjoy this kind of life... this pattern of life is meaningless for me...i start to expect nothing from u since 2011 after u left CES and start ur property agent...i understand time shoouldnt be too systematic sometime, but it is neccessary for most of the time but not all the time... but keep the time move randomly is just wasting the time... conclusion is... u are the one..
sometimes my feeling is... ur fully utilising what i hv and i could... i said i can help u doesnt mean i must help u, that's different thing,pls remember, im not ur mate, u din paid me any single sens,somemore i din demand anything on you...therefore,, i only can said that, everything is enough for me... how long i endure = how long i should take my rest... i've ady try my best... don blame and no recover could be discuss anymore
The year of 2012,January 19 is the last day to be with u...the minute i decide to break with u, i felt nothing, tears finished, sadness gameover, what kind of release it is, there is a grace period i felt happy in my inner heart... i also would like to ask what happen to me.. how can i feel nothing in this situation... the most curious feeling i've were so unbelieveable... but i'm concious to tell myself... i get back my freedom to be myself again... i'm happy to be like this honestly...hahaha
i begin to feel myself as a cold blooded, but anyway, i remain my happiness... this is the most important for me and my family... if u want to say i'm the most selfish person in the world, i don mind and totally don care... because i don think there are something could influence my feeling and decision... i choose the best for myself is to protect myself, thus, nothing wrong could u talk against me...
Even though i said there is a chance for u.. but pls remember, the chance is open for everyone but not only u.. u uses to hv the chance, but pls tell me, how appreciate u're?hv u ever appreciated it? if u say yes, that are impossible for me to feel nothing... material couldn't fulfill everything, if u thing so, i could only tell u, that's just a naif thinking in ur mind..
i feel happy since we're not together, i want to remain like this compare to last time be a stupid waiting for nothing...
Regard - CITC 02/08/12,13.34pm

why my life get difficult and more difficult...

i really felt alone recently, but i don't know why will i felt like this...
college life started, don't this a good starting? i don't think so..
Our distance become further and further after i start my college life...perhaps both of us are quite busy for job and study... yet, why i felt alone is better for me? Independent ady be my serious routine.. i can't change it.. everything you can do i also can do it... in this case, what the purpose for me to be with you? am i need to hurt myself like that.. not really! i always feel afraid when i be with you... only you din realise what i'm really feel... perhaps you always caring me but i din realise..why all people ask me to left you alone? why they always said i can get 1 more who is much better than what you have? i always feel confuse with this kind of Question... do i need to trust them? althought my family also said this... i know that all the conclusion will decide by myself.. but my decision totally will influence by others judgment...why i always heard something bad from others regarding your problem? don't you do better and better? i've given lots of ways to you for your job, why you still change nothing? i felt helpless.. i don't know what to do... u can make me blur blur.... sometimes i discover something wrong with us... i'm not decide to said that due to protect my study mood and your working mood..i'm not dare to think what will we be in the future, since our opinion are totally different with each other.. i really don't know how to communicate with you part of the time...am i need to be patience and patience? or i just need to talk out everthing keep in my heart? i know that you treat me good.. i'm not the only person you treat good... there is another person around us... that's my feel... sometimes can be ignore, sometimes is reality...it's going to 1 year after 4 month... last year December 2009 i change my life, do i need to change again for this year December 2010? i hope not to change it again.. Let it keep on better and better.. 7 days more will be one year for yours left each other.. is it possible for yours to recover again....i don't know and also not dare to think about it.. everything is yours decision not mine... i'm the person only can follow yours decision yet not decide for yours...Pls don't hurt me eventhough both of you wanna recover... Pls tell me honestly... i'll accept it... Joyce & Janice... you must keep on your life.. don't let other people make noice in your life...you need to keep silent if possible, you are able to do it, just see whether you want to do or not... Althought you have leave me... but i still miss the period be with you... hope you get a better life in other country than M'sia..